to be a better man!

here i am in malaysia. i arrived at klia on the 2 Aug. then, i stayed at my first brother's place while visiting my second brother's place and other friends. and at the same time missing my husband in london who spent most of his life nowadays in the lab, and also having my mum&bro-in-law to pay me a visit.
now, i'm at my parents' place in perlis. waiting for the arrival of my bros and sis-in-law on the weekend. and also anticipating for the moment of Langkawi trip on 13/14/15 aug. after that i can't wait to blast off to Johor and S'por and again to KL.
In perlis, my parents are consantly bickering with each other. Sometimes can be quite bitter and vicious. i really miss my time in london at that time. but also i feel guilty if i don't come back to see them. and also i feel i waste money by coming here and not enjoying every bit of my moment in malaysia.
currently, i'm constantly nagging my husband to keep living in london. i feel that i belong there, especially with my working place's environment (not considering the workload). i don't know how am i going to adapt to the lifestyle here next year. i'm not acting or thinking snobbishly, it's just that i have a wider scope of mentality and view of the the world overrall, i have gained more knowledge and wisdom, which i means i need a higher level of role model to look up to. i still remember people in the past who have helped me and will never forget them. if i were to improve in life, i have to seek more opportunities and challenges and mould myself into a better person.